Nothing can keep me from it...

Can you tell that I haven't been on the grind? Can you tell I have been missing my committment to get healthy? Yes, I have been using the excuse that I am preparing my kids for school and job hunting.

But what is an excuse anyway but a reason to be a liar and cover personal failures? To disregard  my own words and remain the same person I was before I started? You may think I am being hard on myself and I agree I am. But I have to be this way. It's my health and long after the crisis that began this journey is forgotten, I must remember to be true and to love myself enough to accomplish this task.

Nothing but death can keep me from it...
                         Nettie in the Color Purple

Almost There

I am almost there...

Tomorrow, I will end my fast and I am looking forward to eating foods again. It has been challenging the past few days.

I purchased Naked 100% Juice Smoothie, Boosted, Green Machine. The juice was flavorful. However, I found it to be a bit too sweet for me. I noticed after I drank it I was running to the bathroom every 10 minutes or so. I believe the juice raise my sugar levels which caused me to urinate frequently. I even tried splicing it water. I drank this juice for the past 1.5 days. I then purchased the Naked Protein Juice Smoothie, Protein Zone.

After drinking these juices, the scale is now tipping at 212 lbs. So yes, I actually weigh more now than I did two days ago. I lost more weight sticking to my vegetable juice. But hey, I was busy playing with the kids and looking for my lost dogs.

In the end, I think this juice would be great for people who are working out and need the energy. However, it was not suitable for my juice fast where I did not exercise regularly. Also the green machine juice has 28 grams of sugar per serving, which is a bit too much for me.

Snotty McHottie

So I am on day 3 of my juice fast and I am considering calling myself Snotty McHottie. I have more slime than 100 snails racing toward a finishline. I am sitting on the couch with a roll of tissues and plenty of mucus to accompany them. Perhaps my snot will breed some new superpower. Snotty McHottie coming to save to the world from wayward toilet paper! Maybe not. Well maybe it will earn me a walk on roll on Grey's Anatomy? Definitely not!

So why all the mucus you ask.. Well according to JuiceFasting.org

"Juice fasting accomplishes the task of removing excess mucous, dead cells, and other entrapped foreign material and also supplies an abundant supply of nutrients which the body, in its renewed energy level, immediately utilizes to heal."

I am definitely looking forward to dropping the Snotty - and just being McHottie  :)

Weight 211.4

Image derived from mmii.info

Gosh darn sweatpants!

As you may already know, yesterday began my juice fast. I began strong, juicing every two hours - beets, kale, carrots, ginger, and squash. But then I had to make dinner for my family and I am writing to report... my miserable failure. I succumbed to chicken, broccoli, and mashed potatoes.

Soon after a horrific headache ensued - chasing me down til bedtime. It was a head throbbing, feeling like you have to vomit kinda headache. At the end of the day, there I was trying to upload my video blog on YouTube announcing to the world my shortcomings.

Weight

214.8 ? What after all that juicing, what? wait a minute...

213.1 - Okay that's better! Had to take off my watch and my heavy sweatpants.

So what's the lesson kids... watch + heavy sweatpants = 1.7 pounds and lots of confusion!

Sooo Juicy...

Today I am beginning my 10 day juice fast and I must admit I am a little afraid of failing. I spent quite a bit of money ($69) on fruits and veggies so that I can be oh soooo juicy!

Well that's not the whole truth. I believe that by doing this fast several things will occur.

   1. God will honor the sacrifice that I am making

   2. My body will respond in a positive manner

   3. My liver will be very happy since it won't have to break down all the processed food

   4. My body will be allowed to detox and get rid of all the toxins

Number 3 is very important since I do not have a gallbladder. Okay, you want the whole story about that right? I was in my twenty's when my gallbladder erupted and had to have emergency surgery to have it removed. I had never even considered it importance until now. After a bit of research I am realizing that the bile stored in the gall bladder helps in digestion so that the liver doesn't have to do all the work. My liver on the other hand is working overtime without the aid of gall bladder and the added bonus of being a body that likes to eat all kinds of fatty processed food.

So here's to you Ms. Liver! (I know you are superwoman because you are always working so very hard). I am giving you a little vacation, almost two weeks long. I hope you enjoy it.

Pic is juice made with beets, carrots, kale, ginger, and a little watermelon w/the rind on!

Weight - 213.6

Hot & Steamy, White & Creamy

Ever wanted something hot, that melted in your mouth, and made you jump up and beg for white creamy... wait a minute, I am talking about cookies and milk.

Well, as I journey toward my goal weight, I realized to be successful all temptation must be removed including fresh from the oven chocolate chip cookies served with ice cold milk. So its time for a refridgerator makeover.

Yep, that's kale, carrots, apples, cabbage, lettuce, ginger, nectarines, pineapples, onions, garlic, and "cute"cumbers. I guess if I get a craving in the middle of the nite those carrots will have to do. I mean they seem big enough to get the job done - right? 

Ya heavy baby...

I am watching the show “Heavy” as I write this. This is my second episode today. The first detailed the 90 – 110 pound weight loss of two women. From the very beginning, these women were inspiring, working hard with the trainers to be successful. The next episode details a man and woman, Travis and Lindy. Both complained about everything the trainers asked them to do. Watching them made me realize how a bad attitude can hinder me from being successful on my own weight loss journey. 

After a few minutes of their complaining I decided to cook dinner for my family – chicken, rice, and Brussel sprouts.  My son reports that Travis has dropped out of the weight loss program while I am in the kitchen. I tell him to turn the TV off. I really don’t feel like seeing someone fail at something as important as getting healthy. It only reminds me of all my own failed attempts to get the weight off.

So here I am finishing the post after dinner and a 45 minute walk on the treadmill.

Breakfast

Denny’s –  ½ of a Moon Over My Hammy, an egg fried hard and to drink- ice water. Hey the hubby wanted to eat out today and have some family time.

Lunch

Slept right through it…

Dunch – Dinner/Lunch at 3:00 p.m.

3 Chicken breast tender, Brussels sprouts, rice

Dinner

Kidney beans with ground turkey meat (and a little bit of pork for flavor!)

While on the journey, I have also committed to drinking almost a gallon of water. Today I have drank almost 100 ounces, so I am almost there.

Weight – 214

Getting it all together

Well, its 1:55 a.m. in the morning and I am up talking to you. As I stated before, I ended up in the ER on Sunday because  my blood pressure skyrocketed. Now, I am sitting at my dining room table, trying to figure out how to get it all together.

I know there is a better way to live my life. There are so many areas where I can improve - managing my finances, being a better mother, being a better person in general, but for now my focus has to be my health. I can no longer afford to ignore the signs that my health is rapidly declining. So here is are my highly embarrassing stats.

weight     -  215.10 lbs
waist       -  43 3/4 inches
hips         -  46 inches
bust         -  44 inches
arms        -  14 inches
thighs      -   27 inches

What's the plan you ask -  I am going to hook my gelatinous areas up to a vacuum machine and suck out all the fat!  Just kidding - I am going to juice, eat right, exercise, and take vitamin supplements. I know the first idea sounded better.

ER!

Sorry, I haven't written in a few days, but I was not feeling too well. Unfortunately, I ended up in the emergency room on Sunday after allowing my stress/ blood pressure to rise to 230/92. As I was being carted away on a stretcher while my kids looked on in fear, I realized that I needed to focus my efforts on getting healthy. While I wanted this blog to be a general source of inspiration, I know it will also chronicle my weight loss and a return to a healthy lifestyle. I will be linking to videos from my YouTube channel of the same name -Superwoman's mantra. Feel free to join me there as well.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VhLdRa0ipfk&feature=channel_video_title