Its Over Now

It's over now. My fast officially ended on Wednesday. But I have a confession to make... I cheated.

On Monday, I walked around thinking my fast was ending on Tuesday. But a quick look at the calendar confirmed my worst fears - two more days instead of one. I lost it... literally! All my will power went out the door. I went to Whole Foods and brought a whole naked chicken, sat down with my 4 year old and devoured half of it. Then my husband started asking me a thousand questions in the middle of my feast. My eyes involuntarily rolled in their sockets, I picked up my purse, and walked out the door chanting I need some alone time as I passed the threshold.

I found myself at Friday's with a new feast of steak, potato salad, and steamed broccoli. I devoured almost all of it including the Oreo ice cream dessert. Afterwards I felt sooo happy. I have continued to juice each morning, exercise each day, and take my vitamins. But I also eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner and snacks.

So I am on a new plan, eating healthy and exercising daily. By the way I need a new scale cause the old one started going crazy and giving me 6 different readings.

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Sea Bass, can I get some sea bass here?

All I can think about at this moment is eating Chilean Sea Bass cooked with shallots, garlic, and butter - some purple potatoes, and artichoke heart with hollandaise. And I have never even had hollandaise, but on the movie Julie and Julia that sauce looked soooo good.

I need to go grocery shopping, but my will power is waning. I think i may go in there and binge.There I am in the cookie aisle crunching on the Keebler Elf, downing chunks of chocolate chip cookies. I have been trying to think about something else all morning. I am now reasoning with myself that I should quit. I finished seven whole days, I lost a few pounds. Hey seven is the number of completion biblically right?

I keep considered what I said when I began. How I arrogantly beat my chest and professed a 10 day fast. Knowing, but not understanding, how very difficult this could be. Would I be wrong if I quit now? I feel sooo bad about contemplating ending the fast early.