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          How are you today sir? Very well I say sir. Run away - run away...

This little lymric seems to accurately sum up the relationship with me and my blog.
Sorry so to my three subscribers, I have been missing in action - running away. But I am back on the grind, past my personal problems, and here to inspire you just as you inspire me.

So for the past week I have been at the gym working out hard, taking my supplements, and taking care of the "business." I'll be detailing more about that soon. My daughter is in competition with the computer right now and my message to her and all my kids, you are more important that the computer. So I am signing off now!

Nothing can keep me from it...

Can you tell that I haven't been on the grind? Can you tell I have been missing my committment to get healthy? Yes, I have been using the excuse that I am preparing my kids for school and job hunting.

But what is an excuse anyway but a reason to be a liar and cover personal failures? To disregard  my own words and remain the same person I was before I started? You may think I am being hard on myself and I agree I am. But I have to be this way. It's my health and long after the crisis that began this journey is forgotten, I must remember to be true and to love myself enough to accomplish this task.

Nothing but death can keep me from it...
                         Nettie in the Color Purple

Ho, ho, ho, Green Giant!

The box said Honey Brown, but that was a lie! What I got was black hair with green highlights. This is the last time I trust a $4.99 home hair color product. Lies, all lies! I was supposed to get some Beyonce hair. Instead I look like the Jolly Green Giant after playing with a faulty inkpen.

Oh Beyonce - if we could all look this good...

Work it Out!

As I reported before I cheated on my juice fast the last couple of days. I weighed myself today and YIKES, I am a startling 217.4. I am positive that I gained back the last 7.4 pound on my binge week which occured during the week of August 8 (the beginning of my fast break).

Today is a brand new day and I will not allow my failures to keep me down. I did learn that I can fast 7 days straight and I am celebrating this small success. I also learned that my body needed the fast just as much as it needs to ingest healthy on a regular basis. Believe it or not, I have been craving exercise.

Here is my stats for today.

Weight - a shocking 217.4
Exercise - 30 minutes on treadmill, 158 calories burned.

Breakfast
2 eggs
1/2 a grilled cheese sandwich
1 cup of coffee ( actually is was about 7 oz of coffee with creamer and organic milk)

I will update you about lunch, dinner, and snacks later.

Supplements and vitamins

B12 with folic acid liquid vitamin - 1 ml
spirulina - 1000 mg
MSM - 1000 mg
cinnamon w/ chromium - 1000 mg
Cod liver oil - 1 tablespoon - yes it tastes gross!
Multivitamin w/antioxidants - this (the antioxidants) is necessary for energy

School Dayz are a coming!

My kids will be going back to school in about 8 days. I even registered my 4-year for a 1/2 day of VPK. I am ohh sooo happy they are going, but a bit concerned for my little one. She can be fearful in new places.

Anyone out there have any tips to help with the new school blues?

LL Cool J make it happen

So I changed my background to that of the sultry LL Cool J. I am inspired by him, not because he is good looking but because it takes a crap load of work to look this good. Because he made a quality decision to get healthy and viola he kept his promise to himself.

I want to be this type of person. Will Smith penned - if you say your gonna run 4 miles and only run two, I never have to worry about losing a thing to you. If I don't keep this commitment to myself then I am the person he is talking about. And that is simply unacceptable.

Its Over Now

It's over now. My fast officially ended on Wednesday. But I have a confession to make... I cheated.

On Monday, I walked around thinking my fast was ending on Tuesday. But a quick look at the calendar confirmed my worst fears - two more days instead of one. I lost it... literally! All my will power went out the door. I went to Whole Foods and brought a whole naked chicken, sat down with my 4 year old and devoured half of it. Then my husband started asking me a thousand questions in the middle of my feast. My eyes involuntarily rolled in their sockets, I picked up my purse, and walked out the door chanting I need some alone time as I passed the threshold.

I found myself at Friday's with a new feast of steak, potato salad, and steamed broccoli. I devoured almost all of it including the Oreo ice cream dessert. Afterwards I felt sooo happy. I have continued to juice each morning, exercise each day, and take my vitamins. But I also eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner and snacks.

So I am on a new plan, eating healthy and exercising daily. By the way I need a new scale cause the old one started going crazy and giving me 6 different readings.

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